Late Night Thoughts

I recently made a friend in the least likely of places. She has looked out for me in times of need, and times of sorrow. Tonight, through her, I realized something about myself. I am not ready for anything, with anyone. There is so much hurt, anger and resentment to deal with, before I can be anything to anyone, and before anyone can truly be anything to me. I came to the conclusion that this new female attention, even from a friend, can be mistaken as something more. Perhaps it is the loneliness within, breaking through. Perhaps, it is seeing something in someone that has been missing, long before the previous relationship. Maybe a bit of both. Hard to say at this point, as I am lost within myself, or more conveniently, mirroring my Myspace quote "Lost in thought and without a map".  I do know this, I have missed the compassion and touch of a female. So badly that it conquered what I knew was right, what was best for me and what was best for my friend.